February 2010
29 posts
dear followers.
due to the amount of bad memories on this tumblr, i have decided tro make a new tumblr. fresh start and all that! please continue to follow me (minus my emo posts!)
www.cocainenightmaresx.tumblr.com
thanks & big love!
lisa
xox
i knew it, i fucking knew it. i just chose not to believe it.
all that time spent together over xmas, not talking to me til like 5pm and telling me she’d been in your bed - all innocent? ha my arse.
but let me guess, im making it up, jumping to conclusions? lol.
rushing to see her before and straight after i was there? oh i wonder why.
fucking her all along, no doubt. you stupid, stupid...
SCUMBAG.
finding a picture of my ex boyfriend fullscale snogging his female ‘friend’ at xmas, while we were together?
HA.
once a cheater, always a cheater eh?
prick.
oh, you’ll get whats coming to you, sunshine ;)
ugh.
valentines days coming up.
okay if you have a boyfriend ..
shit if youre single.
especially newly single.
more salt in the wounds.
“my girlfriend dressed up for me last night. im telling you, theres nothing...”
– um, yes stephen, there is, its called a girl in a football shirt and heels!
oh memories.
I need one of those cuddles, the ones I love that make me feel so secure .. I really need one. Wrapped up as if I’d never be let go.
Stupid today.
Stupid texts.
Stupid me.
"i love you, you know that? much more than you...
Okay so, this had to be done eventually ..
I had to turn on my old phone, the one I had over xmas and face the text messages on it. About 200 of them, all from him.
Each one was like a bullet, seriously. Just little I love you, I miss you, I’m thinking of you ones .. What it was like before all those big arguments.
Long texts too, rattling on about how he feels about me, long forgotten...
i kinda wish.
i had someone with me.
like, i thought i could do this myself?
but now, im not sure if i can?
i want someone to hug me and tell me it’ll all be okay ..
ugh.
you continue to annoy me >.< ..
just got my tarot done, it was scarily on the ball, will post it up once teresa types it pour moi.
im so tireddd.
i wont sleep though :(
youre so cryptic.
its like.
what the fuck?
im scared.
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L-O-V-E's not what this was.
i annoy myself.
klsdkmaojaojfosjof!!!
present - 7 of swords reversed - the seven...
hahahaha.
oh.
i think im starting to love tarot readings.
loves a bit of destinys child.
its over and done, but the heartache lives on inside. and who is the one you’re clinging to, instead of me tonight? and where are you now? now that i need you? tears on my pillow, wherever you go. cry me a river, that leads to your ocean. you’ll never see me fall apart. in the words of a broken heart ..
its just emotion, taking me over. heartache and sorrow, lost in this song. but if...
im dreading tomorrow ..
bad dream, shit sleep.
how horrible is missing someone? missing what you had? especially when theres nothing you can do about it.
:(
im drowning.
in nostalgia.
in feelings.
in emotions.
in you.
tonight was actually amazing.
opal lounge was shit hot, amazing music, plenty hotties ..
suicide bomb in sausage roll?
guberta munter?
actual on the stage, owning it to ludacris v kylie whats your fantasy!
‘we play for celtic and we’re on £40K per week’ lol why you lying?
dom perignon!
best night out in a long time, happy days!
fuck yessssssss.
opal lounge tonighttt :)
smashed.com
x
“and i know that its complicated. but im a loser in love. so baby, raise a glass...”
– speechless - lady gaga.
dickheads never change their spots.
January 2010
280 posts
“Ever thine. Ever mine. Ever ours.”
– Ludwig van Beethoven
the grass aint always greener ..
i think youre gonna learn that the hard way, babe.
clarity.
and a little bit of closure?
not enough to move on, and not nearly enough to see you move on, but i will get there one day. just give me time, and space, dont flaunt things in my face, and let me get over you. because its gonna be a long and difficult process.
LISTEN.
i am alone at a crossroads. i’m not at home in my own home. and i’ve tried and tried. to say what’s on my mind. you should have known, oh. now i’m done believing you. you don’t know what i’m feeling. i’m more than what. you’ve made of me. i followed the voice, you gave to me. but now i’ve gotta find my own.
LOOKBOOK.NU
anyone fancy inviting me?
fucksake.
okay, is this how you want to play it? i mean, we’re talking on msn, or we were, but you wont answer me on that, we have to communicate through tumblr? fine. sorry for being concerned fs. but youve been crying, and i was only asking why. youre always wrtitng blogs about being upset, and i just want to know why youre upset, i dont like seeing you sad. see, you may look at my blog and see im...
hes so evasive. why tell me you care then go back to being a coldhearted prick today? you speak to me like you dont even know me, i ask whats wrong and the answer is always nothing. i worry about you. i wish i could hate you, because itd make this so much easier. so last night is the first night you phone me in weeks, yes, to hear a song, but whatever. then today youre back to being a knob. i dont...
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i never said you were calling to bitch or moan or to declare your undying love fs. i know you called to let me hear a song, and that whats fine, but its coz you started telling me you cared about me and stuff and i was just like umm okay wtfff.
is there any need to be so horrible and nasty all the time?!
its just like ..
what the fuck?
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Have you thought about phoning Jeremy Kyle for this guy? I think Jezza is just the man you need to sort him out.
LOL.
he does need a bit of jeremy kyle methinks! but the lie detector results would be rather interesting ..
tell me something .. ask me anything.
“when we collide we come together.
if we don’t we’ll always be...”
you used to hold me.
um. pot kettle much?
despite being rather fucked last night, i refrained from contacting him in any way shape or form. at one point i was tempted to over a certain blog which was just fucking stupid, but i never. went to craigs houseparty and all was good, then teresa and me want back to mine just before 2.
we had been sitting on my bed for literally 30 seconds when my phone went. “Call...
LOL.
woke up this morning and teresas changed my desktop background to evil kenevil? wtf?
enough.
Of him. Of family. Of life. Of everything.
No point anymore.